I took a big step today. I called the Adoption Services people in my province and told them that we wanted to get on the list for domestic adoption. In this province, there are no private agencies. There is a non-profit that deals with the initial information sessions, etc, then when they decide you're ready, they will refer you for the ministry (department) of Social Services to start your initial intake and home studies, etc.
I had been given the idea that we needed to go for information sessions and an intake interview with the non-profit, but after talking to them today they said that they would just mail out the info and that we read it, then they send out more info - including a letter of intent. When they get the letter back, they refer to the ministry, and within 14 days a social work assigned to your case calls to arrange a ministry intake. Then the fun begins. It can take a year to 18 months to get cleared to be on the list, then it's all a waiting game.
Right now, we're pretty set on an infant. I'd be willing to take one up to 3 months, but would ideally like a newborn. I don't care about race or gender. All I want is a healthy baby. In this province it's a long wait if you want a healthy infant. To be honest, there are a lot of crack-addicted babies, and a lot with Fetal Alcohol Syndrome, but I'm not at the point where I want to deal with that. I deal with kids like that all day long, and as much as I would love my child, I'm not in the place where I want to deal with something that someone else caused. If the child I adopt has diabetes or gets some other type of condition or disease that needs special care, I'll deal with it... but something like FAS, no. It may sound harsh, but that's where we're at.
So, now I"m going to be checking the mail incessantly waiting for the mailout from these people. I'm hoping I can pick up the second package of info during the week after Easter when I'm in the big city. It would save time. They said that depending on how quickly we do up our paperwork and go through the package, we could be referred in as quickly as a week. Basically, given the mailing timeline, etc, we could be assigned to a caseworker at the ministry by the end of April! The chances of getting chosen quickly after being approved are limited. It can take 7-10 years for an infant, but it can also be 7 -10 weeks. It's all up to the birth mother. There has to be some irresponsible teenager out there who would love two teachers to raise her child... right?? I hope!
So that's where we're at with that. I'm kinda excited.
On the TTC front... my temp dropped slightly which makes me a bit crazy! tomorrow I'm off to a conference and then to my brother's for the weekend, so there will be no baby-makin' going on this weekend. I'm pretty sure that I didn't ovulate this cycle. My ovaries were working away, but I think that they didnt' actually release an egg. At least I know that I need the trigger. It still pisses me off. I'm still waiting on the call from the OB/GYN about my biopsy - it's been three weeks... this waiting is WAY worse than the TWW.
Showing posts with label biopsy. Show all posts
Showing posts with label biopsy. Show all posts
Wednesday, 28 March 2012
Saturday, 10 March 2012
Violating Doctor's Orders
Wednesday was the big biopsy day. We got into town and to Dr. B's office about 10 minutes early and was faced with four pregnant women... FOUR!!! I still say that there should be a different waiting room for people who are TTC and going through IF. It's not fair when I have to sit and watch the happy faces all the while waiting for an appointment that could either put us back on the TTC track, or put us further behind.
So a nice little bonus, when they weighed me I weighed 40 lbs less than I had that morning on my scale. Now, I would love to say that I found the miracle for weight loss and that I managed to lose it during those three hours, but I"m just not that good... and you're not that gullible! Apparently the scale I have at home is incredibly wrong - so that was a nice surprise. Of course, it didn't stop me from gaining 3 lbs between Wednesday and today, but that's neither here nor there.
So, I go into the room and go through the basics of what to expect with the nurse. I laughed and told her that she didn't need to explain it - this was my fifth biopsy and I had a pretty good idea of what to expect. She laughed and looked through the file and said "oh, I would think so". So I got undressed and laid on the table - only to wait like that for 10 minutes.
Finally Dr. B came in and man is that woman fast. Within two minutes of coming into the room, she was putting in the catheter - which, for the first time, went in easily and smoothly! Then the biopsy itself. Good lord it hurt. I don't remember any of my biopsies being that bad!! It was awful! Then, Dr. B left me a prescription for another two months of Provera. She said that if I hadn't heard from her by April 1 I should start to take it.
Apparently, according to her calculations, April 1 should be day 10 of my next cycle. I think that she might need to refresh her math skills as I told her that I would be starting my next cycle on Saturday likely. So, she wants me to take it if she doesn't call first, and also that I would have it so if the biopsy doesn't come back the way that we want it to.
What got me was that she actually asked "so, you're still trying to conceive?". I just about laughed out loud. No kidding... if I didn't want to, then I'd have had the hysterectomy instead of putting up with all of this pain and medication! I was a bit taken aback that she would even ask that.
So, she wants me to take the Provera again if we don't know anything, but I'm going to violate doctor's orders... here's why.
If I wait and take the Provera, and then the biopsy comes back clear, it is a wasted cycle. I can't take anymore wasted cycles... not at 35. Not at this point where everything that I want is wrapped up in TTC. If the biopsy doesn't come back clear, then what's one more month.
So, my plan is to take Clomid this month - starting tomorrow (CD 3). In October, the protocol was Clomid on CD 3-7, then tracking ultrasound on CD 11, and trigger on CD 12. Naturally, since Dr. B wants me to take Provera, there will be no tracking ultrasound and therefore no trigger shot. Here's why I'm not worried. On CD 11, I had an 18 mm follicle, and so did the the next day. I ovulated about 16 hours later - not the 32-36 that every doctor and website says will happen. That makes me think that I was already in the process of ovulating. And when I went back for another tracking ultrasound on CD 15, the follicle was gone. So, between that and the OPK, I know that I ovulated.
So my plan this month is to take Clomid from CD 3-7, and then hope beyond hope that I ovulate on my own. I figure that if I don't, not a big deal, but if I do then we're one step closer and I will know that I don't need the trigger shot. I have a bunch OPK sticks to use, and have started to chart my temps again - so hopefully that will clearly show me that there was ovulation (or not).
And then there is the issue of the hyperplasia. If it's still there, then there is little chance that implantation could occur. But if it's gone, then the chance would be there and we need to take advantage of that. If I wait to take the Provera and the hyperplasia is gone, then we've missed that chance.
I know that I should follow the doctor's orders, but the last time the Provera got rid of it in three months and I was in much worse shape then than I was this time. My gut is telling me that the Provera did it's job and that we're going to be cleared to TTC, so why wait.
Am I crazy? Yeah probably!
So a nice little bonus, when they weighed me I weighed 40 lbs less than I had that morning on my scale. Now, I would love to say that I found the miracle for weight loss and that I managed to lose it during those three hours, but I"m just not that good... and you're not that gullible! Apparently the scale I have at home is incredibly wrong - so that was a nice surprise. Of course, it didn't stop me from gaining 3 lbs between Wednesday and today, but that's neither here nor there.
So, I go into the room and go through the basics of what to expect with the nurse. I laughed and told her that she didn't need to explain it - this was my fifth biopsy and I had a pretty good idea of what to expect. She laughed and looked through the file and said "oh, I would think so". So I got undressed and laid on the table - only to wait like that for 10 minutes.
Finally Dr. B came in and man is that woman fast. Within two minutes of coming into the room, she was putting in the catheter - which, for the first time, went in easily and smoothly! Then the biopsy itself. Good lord it hurt. I don't remember any of my biopsies being that bad!! It was awful! Then, Dr. B left me a prescription for another two months of Provera. She said that if I hadn't heard from her by April 1 I should start to take it.
Apparently, according to her calculations, April 1 should be day 10 of my next cycle. I think that she might need to refresh her math skills as I told her that I would be starting my next cycle on Saturday likely. So, she wants me to take it if she doesn't call first, and also that I would have it so if the biopsy doesn't come back the way that we want it to.
What got me was that she actually asked "so, you're still trying to conceive?". I just about laughed out loud. No kidding... if I didn't want to, then I'd have had the hysterectomy instead of putting up with all of this pain and medication! I was a bit taken aback that she would even ask that.
So, she wants me to take the Provera again if we don't know anything, but I'm going to violate doctor's orders... here's why.
If I wait and take the Provera, and then the biopsy comes back clear, it is a wasted cycle. I can't take anymore wasted cycles... not at 35. Not at this point where everything that I want is wrapped up in TTC. If the biopsy doesn't come back clear, then what's one more month.
So, my plan is to take Clomid this month - starting tomorrow (CD 3). In October, the protocol was Clomid on CD 3-7, then tracking ultrasound on CD 11, and trigger on CD 12. Naturally, since Dr. B wants me to take Provera, there will be no tracking ultrasound and therefore no trigger shot. Here's why I'm not worried. On CD 11, I had an 18 mm follicle, and so did the the next day. I ovulated about 16 hours later - not the 32-36 that every doctor and website says will happen. That makes me think that I was already in the process of ovulating. And when I went back for another tracking ultrasound on CD 15, the follicle was gone. So, between that and the OPK, I know that I ovulated.
So my plan this month is to take Clomid from CD 3-7, and then hope beyond hope that I ovulate on my own. I figure that if I don't, not a big deal, but if I do then we're one step closer and I will know that I don't need the trigger shot. I have a bunch OPK sticks to use, and have started to chart my temps again - so hopefully that will clearly show me that there was ovulation (or not).
And then there is the issue of the hyperplasia. If it's still there, then there is little chance that implantation could occur. But if it's gone, then the chance would be there and we need to take advantage of that. If I wait to take the Provera and the hyperplasia is gone, then we've missed that chance.
I know that I should follow the doctor's orders, but the last time the Provera got rid of it in three months and I was in much worse shape then than I was this time. My gut is telling me that the Provera did it's job and that we're going to be cleared to TTC, so why wait.
Am I crazy? Yeah probably!
Tuesday, 6 March 2012
The Big Day
I'll post my photo challenge pic a bit later. For the moment, I need to talk about tomorrow.
Tomorrow is the big day. Not a birthday, not a wedding, not even a payday... it's biopsy day.
I had initially had my biopsy scheduled for the 14th. A couple of weeks ago I recalculated where I would be on my cycle on the 14th and it was going to be at the beginning of a new cycle. That wouldn't work. Dr. B wants to do the biopsy near the end of a cycle. So, I called the office and explained my situation to the receptionist. She was awesome. She said that Dr. B is only in on Wed and Thurs this week, but that they would just have to fit me in, because it was a time sensitive thing.
I hated the idea of waiting for three hours to get in, but it has to be done... so I took the 4:20 appointment.
I booked a dentist appointment for that day earlier - so two fillings and a biopsy nearly back to back... fun fun fun.
Today, after work, I noticed that the office had called me. I decided to call back since they were still open. The receptionist told me that there had been a cancellation of a C-section, so could I come for 11:45. She said that the morning was pretty quiet so they should be able to get me in quickly.
So now the biopsy is changed to 11:45, and I have a dentist appointment at 1. Talk about all the pain in one big lump.
I'm terrified that this biopsy is going to go badly. First of all the pain is always ridiculously intense and the only advice I get is to "take some Advil" which is great but I'm allergic. So there's that to look forward to.
Then there is the waiting for the results. Luckily, Dr. B calls with results, so hopefully she gets them back quickly. I don't have a lot of faith that the medroxy has worked... I hope so, but I don't have a lot of faith that it did.
If it didn't work, then we're back to more months of the medroxy - and maybe a D&C to clear it out first. That's what worries me. THe last time I had a D&C first so the medroxy worked great. This time I was starting with an 11 mm lining and then starting the medroxy.
God I hope it works. I just want to get back to trying again - the waiting kills me.
Tomorrow is the big day. Not a birthday, not a wedding, not even a payday... it's biopsy day.
I had initially had my biopsy scheduled for the 14th. A couple of weeks ago I recalculated where I would be on my cycle on the 14th and it was going to be at the beginning of a new cycle. That wouldn't work. Dr. B wants to do the biopsy near the end of a cycle. So, I called the office and explained my situation to the receptionist. She was awesome. She said that Dr. B is only in on Wed and Thurs this week, but that they would just have to fit me in, because it was a time sensitive thing.
I hated the idea of waiting for three hours to get in, but it has to be done... so I took the 4:20 appointment.
I booked a dentist appointment for that day earlier - so two fillings and a biopsy nearly back to back... fun fun fun.
Today, after work, I noticed that the office had called me. I decided to call back since they were still open. The receptionist told me that there had been a cancellation of a C-section, so could I come for 11:45. She said that the morning was pretty quiet so they should be able to get me in quickly.
So now the biopsy is changed to 11:45, and I have a dentist appointment at 1. Talk about all the pain in one big lump.
I'm terrified that this biopsy is going to go badly. First of all the pain is always ridiculously intense and the only advice I get is to "take some Advil" which is great but I'm allergic. So there's that to look forward to.
Then there is the waiting for the results. Luckily, Dr. B calls with results, so hopefully she gets them back quickly. I don't have a lot of faith that the medroxy has worked... I hope so, but I don't have a lot of faith that it did.
If it didn't work, then we're back to more months of the medroxy - and maybe a D&C to clear it out first. That's what worries me. THe last time I had a D&C first so the medroxy worked great. This time I was starting with an 11 mm lining and then starting the medroxy.
God I hope it works. I just want to get back to trying again - the waiting kills me.
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