F*&*^% Biopsies

Well, I had my endometrial biopsy today, and yeah it was that fabulous!

The oncologist had prescribed me 1 mg of Ativan and 1 mg of Hydromophone to help with anxiety and pain.  Guess what... it did fuck all to help!  The pain was just as bad as the last one - maybe even worse.  I cried out in pain a number of times.  The doctor just kept saying "keep breathing normally".  I kept trying to take deep breaths, but the pain was so bad I couldn't breathe.  When it was all done, the room was spinning and I had broken out in a cold sweat, and couldnt' open my eyes.  I laid there for a few minutes then got up and promptly fell over.  It's a great feeling, having your naked ass hit the exam room floor.  That didn't help with the after cramping either, let me tell you.

On a scale of 1-10 of pain, this biopsy was an 8 easily.  The oncologist said that it's just not worth it to do it with general anesthesia. I disagree, but the doctor has to agree.  She did say that perhaps doing it with an IV drip might be a good idea.  I guess we'll find out in 3 months when I got back for another one.

Seriously, this might be the thing that decides whether we do more than one pregnancy.  If we manage the first pregnancy, the time between the first and second is going to have to have biopsies in order to make sure that everything is still good while I'm not pregnant.  I don't know if I can handle that.

For the last four nights I haven't slept.  I finally took a sleeping pill last night and it did knock me out which was good, but I don't feel rested.  The supposed hard-core narcotic pain killer didn't even take down my headache that I had going into the biopsy.  I tried to tell them that pain hurts me more than other people and drugs don't work well on me.  I once had a tooth pulled and it took 17 needles to almost freeze my mouth.  When I needed stitches in my knee, it took 6 needles to freeze it.  When I had my tonsils out, I counted backward from 10, hit zero, then started backward from 100... I got to 77 before I passed out.  Painkillers don't work well on me.  At least the oncologist knows for next time that this dose didn't work and maybe she can come up with a better solution.

So yeah, the biopsy was horrific.

Top it off... she took one look down there and told me that she's sure that I have an infection.  She gave me a prescription for two antibiotics and told me to take them even though we don't know what it is.  She said if it needs to be changed, she'll call when she gets the results.  Then she told me that I have some "lesions" down there, and was surprised that I wasn't in pain.  She also said that I have spots on my cervix and it looks pretty disturbed and there is obvious infection.  These antibiotics are pretty strong stuff (Keflex and Flagyl) so hopefully they will do the job.

On the upside, the MRI I had in early June to see if there was any cancer anywhere in that area, came back completely clear... so yay for that!  Since the RE said that the lining was only 15 mm in June, and the oncologist said that the fact that I've only had two days of spotting (which she said was completely normal), the oncologist said that the meds were obviously working and she was optimistic.  She also thought she had me on half the dosage so that's a bit strange... but whatever... hopefully it's worked.

So right now I"m nesting on the couch - blankies, pillows, tv, computer, and iPhone... oh and some chocolate chip cookies (I splurged and got them even though they have wheat in them and I'm not supposed to have it... I figure I've earned it).  I think that I'll break another rule and have a Diet Coke too.... why not... the day is shot and I'm in pain!  I damned well think I've earned it!