Friday, 27 September 2013

The verdict

No! That's right she said no. She didn't even bat an eye when I told her about 40 lbs and she said that she thinks it is ridiculous that I'm seeing multiple doctors. She went on to say that ifthe specialist   (RE) didn't want to deal with it, why would a generalist. Them she said that I started a bit too late and might be right that we will run out of time.

The whole appointment left me sad and empty. I've seriously thought about just ending it all tonight. I'm physically and emotionally exhausted. The thought of getting through tomorrow make me sad. Everything just hurts.

All the things that the doctors are saying ate just like the things the bullies used to say... So now I'm back to being the scared little girl. I need to get past that.

Anyway,the answer is 100lb loss, that's all I can do.

I fucking hate my life



Hi Peg
I don't have any answers but for what it's worth, I'm praying for you this morning. Please please please know that you're loved and cared for. I'm so sorry that you're going through this and that the doctors are so horrible.


Ok...I officially hate Dr. B right now. She's full of shit. 1) It is NOT ridiculous to see multiple doctors. It's called exercising your right to get a second (or third or fourth) opinion. You have every right to explore all options, especially for something this important. 2) What the hell does she mean that you started too late? I don't get it. You started trying before you were even married and you had no idea at that time that you'd have problems. And how is it your fault that your doctors were incompetent and didn't give you the treatment you should have gotten right off the bat? I'm just enraged. I know she tends to be blunt but I didn't think ANY doctor could be so cold and insensitive.

I hate that you're going through this. It's so bloody unfair.

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