Last night I got a phone call from a dear friend of mine. She asked me if I wanted to adopt a one-month old baby girl. Apparently her sister called her asking if she wanted to adopt. My friend has a very sick little boy (as in life threatening illness) and isn't in any situation to adopt - but she immediately thought of me. So I get the call. I was thrown off right away! I didn't know how to respond.
Apparently, a young woman in a town about an hour down the road from us has had her one-month old daughter taken from her. The woman is unable to care for the baby, but the baby is healthy. The father of the baby is a 73-year-old man, so is unable to care for the baby as well. My friend's sister is friends with the grandmother of the baby and the grandmother is trying to find someone to adopt the baby.
As much as I want to just say YES YES YES and do it, I know that it's impossible. Here is why:
Presently, we are not in a financial situation that allows us to go out and buy everything that we'd need for a baby in a matter of hours. We are going to struggle to pay all of the bills over the summer, so taking on another mouth to feed, as well as legal bills, and baby supplies is not in the budget.
I haven't given the appropriate notice to my employer for a leave to deal with a new baby. At this point, I wouldn't be able to get the full year off because I need to give them a heads up that it would be coming.
We haven't been cleared for adoption by Social Services. We would need a home study, and complete application and we haven't done that.
Private adoptions in our province are against the law. You can only adopt a baby directly from the parents if it is a close relative. It is to stop people from selling their babies apparently. So, regardless of whether the mother is willing to sign away her rights or not, she can't decide who gets her baby - it's illegal.
It wouldn't be as if we would automatically get to adopt the baby. It takes months (if not years) for parental rights to be stripped. I can't believe for a second that any woman who has her baby taken from her is going to willingly give up her rights... so that would mean years of waiting while bonding with a baby and potentially have them taken away. Plus, the mother's rights may be taken away, but there is no reason to strip the father's rights apparently (it is only because of his age that he is unable to care for the infant).
Finally, I can't imagine that an adoption of a baby from an hour away, who's parents and grandparents know who we are, won't cause some sort of issues in the future. Honestly, I don't have much problem with open adoption, but when the child has been removed from the home against the will of the mother, that doesn't strike me as a situation that would turn out well for us in the end. I have visions of an angry mother showing up on my doorstep in a few months demanding her baby back.
In the end, I would love to say yes! I would to be able to just drop everything and get our family started, but both me and DH have agreed that for us, in this situation, it's just not right.
Monday, 4 July 2011
Sunday, 3 July 2011
Ahh, she's back
So, I was so confused over where AF was this month. The last two months have been very very short cycles... 17 and 24 days. This month, I was at day 30 when I went for acupuncture and hadn't had any signs of AF showing up - no PMS, nothing. The acupuncturist said that means that the acupuncture is working and that I shouldn't have PMS - it is not normal for your body to react to a natural cycle that way. So I went away wondering when I was going to see AF show up.
Yesterday AF made an appearance... it is really light, but there. It might be considered spotting - I'm never really sure of when it is that and when it's just a light period. Regardless, AF is here or on the way in the next day or so. I have no real pain or bloating, or anything that I normally do, so that's a good thing.
So, new cycle, new chance to try again.
Yesterday AF made an appearance... it is really light, but there. It might be considered spotting - I'm never really sure of when it is that and when it's just a light period. Regardless, AF is here or on the way in the next day or so. I have no real pain or bloating, or anything that I normally do, so that's a good thing.
So, new cycle, new chance to try again.
Friday, 1 July 2011
Happy Canada Day
I am Canadian! I just had to say it. I love this country - even the harsh winter and bird-sized mosquitos can't chase me away! I just finished watching the fireworks... they were ok, but I love fireworks - even on a small scale.
While yesterday was technically my first day of summer vacation, with grad it didn't feel like it. Today... today seems like the first official day! So, I was awake at 8:30 this morning (that's sleeping in for me), and then by 9:30 was actually sitting there bored contemplating starting planning for next year. Yes, I apparently need a life... or at least a hobby! I decided to houseclean. I'm hosting a party for my grandmother's birthday and my house is a disaster, so I figured that I may as well start to clean. I didn't get much done. Oh well.
So, now in the city to visit friends and family for a few days, and then back to the grind of cleaning the house and getting everything ready to go.
Exciting summer vacation eh?
While yesterday was technically my first day of summer vacation, with grad it didn't feel like it. Today... today seems like the first official day! So, I was awake at 8:30 this morning (that's sleeping in for me), and then by 9:30 was actually sitting there bored contemplating starting planning for next year. Yes, I apparently need a life... or at least a hobby! I decided to houseclean. I'm hosting a party for my grandmother's birthday and my house is a disaster, so I figured that I may as well start to clean. I didn't get much done. Oh well.
So, now in the city to visit friends and family for a few days, and then back to the grind of cleaning the house and getting everything ready to go.
Exciting summer vacation eh?
Sad, but happy.
So I saw the acupuncturist again yesterday. That has been my fifth appointment in the last five weeks. She wants me to see her once a week for the next month, and then switch to once a month... works for me. My health plan is paying for it anyway, and it gives me a good excuse to go to the city every week!
I told her that I'm a bit confused. I'm on CD 33 today and no signs of AF being en route. Normally, 4-5 days prior, I'm hit with nasty PMS... sore/tender breasts, bad bloating, unable to sleep, and irritability and mood swings. I've had none of this this month. I even asked DH if I was mood swinging, because quite honestly I'm not sure if I can be the proper judge of this one. He swears that I'm not. So that's odd for me. I asked the acupuncturist about it... her response? "That's good, you shouldn't have PMS - if you do, then your body is not doing what it's supposed to". The fact that my last two cycles were 17 and 24 days respectively has me a bit confused over nothing on CD 33, but I'm willing to keep waiting. I would normally be thinking that I"m pregnant, but there is no chance of that given that I clearly didn't ovulate. So be it. It allowed me to have a bit of fun at our staff party this past week. Hopefully AF shows up soon and we can get started on the next cycle.
On the sad but happy note... last night was graduation at the school I teach at. This has been an amazing year for me. In my first year of teaching (2009-2010), I had the most horrible year possible. It was horrible and I almost contemplated quitting the profession. I got a transfer to my current school and what a change. I loved it! Everyone is amazing - the admin, the staff, the students! Everyone!
So last night was graduation. The students all looked so grown up and amazing. It was so nice to sit and watch the kids be honoured for all of their hard work. Small town grads are great too! They are so personal and special. Each student is honoured individually and gets their own time to be special.
I have had the honour of developing special relationships with a few of the grads. Some of the kids I haven't had much chance to get to know unfortunately. Our paths didn't really cross too much. Others, however, I've had a lot of interactions with. Two girls in the class (Janelle and Sky) have become my shadows for a lot of this year. They are amazing girls - funny, beautiful, and completely lovable. They looked outstanding and so grown up. I am going to miss having them around everyday. Sky has already told me that she will be calling me to set up a lunch date next year. And the funny thing is that she will. On a side note, her brother may be my biggest fan. He's already told me that the first day back at school in the fall, we're going for lunch because he will have had two months without me and he can't handle that.
The other two graduates that I have had the amazing honour of know very well are twins. Garrett and Josh are the sons of the principal of the school. There is just something about these two boys - they are SO charming. They know just what to say when to get what they want. I don't think that I have the ability to say no to them. In the last couple of months, I became Josh's go-to person. Before school, after school, during school, during class, it didn't really matter, he spent a LOT of time in my classroom. He's a great kid - smart, funny, kind, and good looking. He's got a very bright future ahead of him.
I know that a teacher isn't supposed to have a favourite student, but it happens... we try, but it just does. Mine would definitely be Garrett. Garrett has always struggled with school. In a different school in grade 7, he was put in the "dumb" class because they figured that he didn't have much in terms of ability. Garrett has a mild form of cerebral palsy, and has a brain tumour, but this has not let anything stop him. He was a star of the football team and one of the most popular kids in the school. He was put in my class in September because he was refusing to take math. In second semester, he tried math and after struggling begged admin to let him back into my class. This was a month in and he could only come in with my permission - well he asked me and naturally I said yes. Garrett and I have had so many great conversations. This boy is a hard nut to crack. He is so tough on the outside. But, underneath it all he's a big softy. His father called me into the office a few weeks ago and asked if I would have a heart-to-heart with Garrett. Garrett has been struggling to decide what he wants to do with his future and had the attitude of "I can't do it". His father had tried talking to him, and so had a couple of other teachers and nobody could get through to him. His father (also my boss) told me that Garrett basically idolizes me and thinks that if I say it, then it must be true. I naturally agreed and had a sit down with the kid. He told me that he didn't figure it was worth trying because he'd just fail. I told him that he was full of shit and that he was so full of potential and all he had to do was put his mind to it and he could succeed. Anyone who tells him otherwise is wrong and he shouldn't listen to them.
So yesterday, he walks through the arch to go up to the stage, I nearly cried. After the ceremonies, the kids all have their own family parties. We had invites to four of the parties. We went to the two girls' parties briefly, and then headed off to the twins party. We got out of the car and were swarmed by students. Both boys (Josh and Garrett) came running up to me and gave me a big hug. Then they spent the next hour that we were there standing there visiting with us. At one point I went to get a drink. Garrett followed me. He said "you aren't leaving right away are you?" I said no, and asked why. He said "well, I, I just wanted to make sure that I said goodbye properly". He had tears in his eyes and said "thanks so much for being there for me... you're the only teacher who has actually truly cared and hasn't dismissed me. without you, I would have given up this year". He's such a smart kid, but totally underestimates himself because he has been underestimated for years.
Near the end of the evening, we went to say goodbye to the boys. Josh gave me a big hug and told me that he will be emailing me and that he also expects to have a lunch date in the fall with me. Such a sweet kid.
Garrett came up to me, gave me a big hug and thanked me again. He pulled me aside and told me that because of me, he had decided that he was going to check out the graphic design program that I recommended for him. Then he said that he would see me this summer when he came to visit because "I can't get through two whole months without - you're the best thing that has happened to me in a very long time... oh wait, that sounds creepy... well you know what I mean".
I'm going to miss those kids, but I can't even express how proud of them I am!
I told her that I'm a bit confused. I'm on CD 33 today and no signs of AF being en route. Normally, 4-5 days prior, I'm hit with nasty PMS... sore/tender breasts, bad bloating, unable to sleep, and irritability and mood swings. I've had none of this this month. I even asked DH if I was mood swinging, because quite honestly I'm not sure if I can be the proper judge of this one. He swears that I'm not. So that's odd for me. I asked the acupuncturist about it... her response? "That's good, you shouldn't have PMS - if you do, then your body is not doing what it's supposed to". The fact that my last two cycles were 17 and 24 days respectively has me a bit confused over nothing on CD 33, but I'm willing to keep waiting. I would normally be thinking that I"m pregnant, but there is no chance of that given that I clearly didn't ovulate. So be it. It allowed me to have a bit of fun at our staff party this past week. Hopefully AF shows up soon and we can get started on the next cycle.
On the sad but happy note... last night was graduation at the school I teach at. This has been an amazing year for me. In my first year of teaching (2009-2010), I had the most horrible year possible. It was horrible and I almost contemplated quitting the profession. I got a transfer to my current school and what a change. I loved it! Everyone is amazing - the admin, the staff, the students! Everyone!
So last night was graduation. The students all looked so grown up and amazing. It was so nice to sit and watch the kids be honoured for all of their hard work. Small town grads are great too! They are so personal and special. Each student is honoured individually and gets their own time to be special.
I have had the honour of developing special relationships with a few of the grads. Some of the kids I haven't had much chance to get to know unfortunately. Our paths didn't really cross too much. Others, however, I've had a lot of interactions with. Two girls in the class (Janelle and Sky) have become my shadows for a lot of this year. They are amazing girls - funny, beautiful, and completely lovable. They looked outstanding and so grown up. I am going to miss having them around everyday. Sky has already told me that she will be calling me to set up a lunch date next year. And the funny thing is that she will. On a side note, her brother may be my biggest fan. He's already told me that the first day back at school in the fall, we're going for lunch because he will have had two months without me and he can't handle that.
The other two graduates that I have had the amazing honour of know very well are twins. Garrett and Josh are the sons of the principal of the school. There is just something about these two boys - they are SO charming. They know just what to say when to get what they want. I don't think that I have the ability to say no to them. In the last couple of months, I became Josh's go-to person. Before school, after school, during school, during class, it didn't really matter, he spent a LOT of time in my classroom. He's a great kid - smart, funny, kind, and good looking. He's got a very bright future ahead of him.
I know that a teacher isn't supposed to have a favourite student, but it happens... we try, but it just does. Mine would definitely be Garrett. Garrett has always struggled with school. In a different school in grade 7, he was put in the "dumb" class because they figured that he didn't have much in terms of ability. Garrett has a mild form of cerebral palsy, and has a brain tumour, but this has not let anything stop him. He was a star of the football team and one of the most popular kids in the school. He was put in my class in September because he was refusing to take math. In second semester, he tried math and after struggling begged admin to let him back into my class. This was a month in and he could only come in with my permission - well he asked me and naturally I said yes. Garrett and I have had so many great conversations. This boy is a hard nut to crack. He is so tough on the outside. But, underneath it all he's a big softy. His father called me into the office a few weeks ago and asked if I would have a heart-to-heart with Garrett. Garrett has been struggling to decide what he wants to do with his future and had the attitude of "I can't do it". His father had tried talking to him, and so had a couple of other teachers and nobody could get through to him. His father (also my boss) told me that Garrett basically idolizes me and thinks that if I say it, then it must be true. I naturally agreed and had a sit down with the kid. He told me that he didn't figure it was worth trying because he'd just fail. I told him that he was full of shit and that he was so full of potential and all he had to do was put his mind to it and he could succeed. Anyone who tells him otherwise is wrong and he shouldn't listen to them.
So yesterday, he walks through the arch to go up to the stage, I nearly cried. After the ceremonies, the kids all have their own family parties. We had invites to four of the parties. We went to the two girls' parties briefly, and then headed off to the twins party. We got out of the car and were swarmed by students. Both boys (Josh and Garrett) came running up to me and gave me a big hug. Then they spent the next hour that we were there standing there visiting with us. At one point I went to get a drink. Garrett followed me. He said "you aren't leaving right away are you?" I said no, and asked why. He said "well, I, I just wanted to make sure that I said goodbye properly". He had tears in his eyes and said "thanks so much for being there for me... you're the only teacher who has actually truly cared and hasn't dismissed me. without you, I would have given up this year". He's such a smart kid, but totally underestimates himself because he has been underestimated for years.
Near the end of the evening, we went to say goodbye to the boys. Josh gave me a big hug and told me that he will be emailing me and that he also expects to have a lunch date in the fall with me. Such a sweet kid.
Garrett came up to me, gave me a big hug and thanked me again. He pulled me aside and told me that because of me, he had decided that he was going to check out the graphic design program that I recommended for him. Then he said that he would see me this summer when he came to visit because "I can't get through two whole months without - you're the best thing that has happened to me in a very long time... oh wait, that sounds creepy... well you know what I mean".
I'm going to miss those kids, but I can't even express how proud of them I am!
Sunday, 26 June 2011
I'm back
It's been a while. I haven't stayed away on purpose, it's just been so crazy in my life that the blog hasn't really come to my mind. I still check on other blogs, but the thought of sitting down and writing something is the last thing I want to do most nights.
Where did the month of June go?? My last post was June 3!
Well, quick update... I can definitely say that this month was yet again a bust in the baby department :( I'm not overly surprised. I'm amazingly calm about that fact. The only day that I got remotely upset about it all was Father's Day. I was feelings so guilty and sad for my husband - feeling horrible that I was the cause of him not being a father for yet another year. We packed up and went to his brother's house (I don't much like his brother btw) to have a family BBQ with my in-laws. Perhaps it was a good thing. My husband's brother and his wife don't have any kids either, so it's not like I was inundated with baby or kiddie stuff. It was simply to celebrate my father-in-law (who is a great guy btw - I really do like my parents-in-law... thankfully!)
That day made me wonder if my in-laws will ever be grandparents - I know they really want to be, but it looks like we may be their only option. DH's brother is 37 and his wife 40, and they aren't even talking about having kids openly. The only time that it is ever brought up, he cringes and says "we'll see". It's not going to happen - I would almost be money on it. And then there is us. *sigh*
So, my month was spent trying to get everything finished for the end of the school year. I had a two day camping trip with 10 grade 7 students. All I can say is this people... don't have decuplets! lol. I love kids, I really do... but two full days, in the wilderness, with 10 kids who aren't mine, and are all teens! yikes. I deserve a medal or something. Actually they were pretty awesome. One little princess spent her entire trip complaining, but several others told her to shut it, which was amusing. I got home completely exhausted. I took the next day off, only to have my administrator call me at home five times to get information from me. It's kind of nice to know that I'm needed I guess.
The rest of the month was a push to get done all the course work and try like hell to not lose it - the kids are getting rather like animals - they are more than ready for summer, and it shows in behaviour and commitment.
I just finished calculating my final grades for report cards and all that is left is to put the grades into the system and put in my comments. I'm thinking that since I did such a great job of comments in the first two terms, a simple "have a great summer" would probably suffice this time :)
I am switching my teaching assignment for next year, and my physical classroom - I get the nicest room in the school - large windows, lots of space, excellent location. And, I'm going from teaching Math to English - much closer to my area of expertise. I'm very excited. AFter a shit year last year, this year has been amazing - my final review came in yesterday and it was glowing - no problems at all. I love this school!
On a bittersweet note, Thursday is graduation. 10 kids graduating from our school. Quite honestly, two of my favourite students in the school are among them. I know, I know, you aren't supposed to have favourites, but these two have huge personalities and seem to know when a person needs cheering up. According to the parent (they are twins), the one boy didn't show any interest in school until I started to teach him, so the parent has actually asked me to sit down with the boy and try to talk to him about his future, because he won't talk to anyone else, but can't say enough good stuff about me. Huge compliment! I'm going to miss these kids... all of them! It's exciting to see them growing up and moving on, but sad to see them leave.
back to report cards!
Where did the month of June go?? My last post was June 3!
Well, quick update... I can definitely say that this month was yet again a bust in the baby department :( I'm not overly surprised. I'm amazingly calm about that fact. The only day that I got remotely upset about it all was Father's Day. I was feelings so guilty and sad for my husband - feeling horrible that I was the cause of him not being a father for yet another year. We packed up and went to his brother's house (I don't much like his brother btw) to have a family BBQ with my in-laws. Perhaps it was a good thing. My husband's brother and his wife don't have any kids either, so it's not like I was inundated with baby or kiddie stuff. It was simply to celebrate my father-in-law (who is a great guy btw - I really do like my parents-in-law... thankfully!)
That day made me wonder if my in-laws will ever be grandparents - I know they really want to be, but it looks like we may be their only option. DH's brother is 37 and his wife 40, and they aren't even talking about having kids openly. The only time that it is ever brought up, he cringes and says "we'll see". It's not going to happen - I would almost be money on it. And then there is us. *sigh*
So, my month was spent trying to get everything finished for the end of the school year. I had a two day camping trip with 10 grade 7 students. All I can say is this people... don't have decuplets! lol. I love kids, I really do... but two full days, in the wilderness, with 10 kids who aren't mine, and are all teens! yikes. I deserve a medal or something. Actually they were pretty awesome. One little princess spent her entire trip complaining, but several others told her to shut it, which was amusing. I got home completely exhausted. I took the next day off, only to have my administrator call me at home five times to get information from me. It's kind of nice to know that I'm needed I guess.
The rest of the month was a push to get done all the course work and try like hell to not lose it - the kids are getting rather like animals - they are more than ready for summer, and it shows in behaviour and commitment.
I just finished calculating my final grades for report cards and all that is left is to put the grades into the system and put in my comments. I'm thinking that since I did such a great job of comments in the first two terms, a simple "have a great summer" would probably suffice this time :)
I am switching my teaching assignment for next year, and my physical classroom - I get the nicest room in the school - large windows, lots of space, excellent location. And, I'm going from teaching Math to English - much closer to my area of expertise. I'm very excited. AFter a shit year last year, this year has been amazing - my final review came in yesterday and it was glowing - no problems at all. I love this school!
On a bittersweet note, Thursday is graduation. 10 kids graduating from our school. Quite honestly, two of my favourite students in the school are among them. I know, I know, you aren't supposed to have favourites, but these two have huge personalities and seem to know when a person needs cheering up. According to the parent (they are twins), the one boy didn't show any interest in school until I started to teach him, so the parent has actually asked me to sit down with the boy and try to talk to him about his future, because he won't talk to anyone else, but can't say enough good stuff about me. Huge compliment! I'm going to miss these kids... all of them! It's exciting to see them growing up and moving on, but sad to see them leave.
back to report cards!
Friday, 3 June 2011
Needles needles needles
I saw the acupuncturist yesterday.
I had acupuncture a few years ago when I was struggling with pain for a herniated disc. Nothing I did, and nothing I took seemed to fix the pain, so I thought "why not". Top it off that my health plan covered it, so I gave it a shot and holy moly, the pain went right away... and stayed away for about 3 weeks! amazing!
Soooo, I figured, why not. My friend over at Sprout suggested that perhaps acupuncture to spur on ovulation might be in order. I figured, why not. So I went in yesterday.
My appointment started with a full history - REALLY full history, more than any medical doctor has ever taken. Given that I was there for fertility issues, the fact that she was asking me about ear infections, etc was really weird. Then when we were finished she told me that it turns out that the ears are connected to the same system that the reproductive system is ... the kidney meridian. That doesn't mean there is anything wrong with my kidneys, just that that system is weakened. She said that all things point to my body, and particularly the kidney meridian, being weakened from the extensive medical issues that I've had in the past couple of years and has been exacerbated by the stress.
She wants to treat me to improve the energy of this zone and improve it. She said that she thinks from what I've told her that I am ovulating and quite possibly getting pregnant, but my body is unable to support a pregnancy. Given that my luteal phase is typically REALLY short she may be right. She actually said that she thinks that it might be better to wait a month or two before getting pregnant in order to strengthen my system so that it is ready for pregnancy. I'm tossing the idea around. Not the idea of not trying, just the idea of not using drugs and just letting it happen if it happens over the summer. I don't have an appointment with the obgyn until August 24, so maybe if I just wait until then to go on the drugs... I don't know... it's an idea I"m throwing around.
Anyway, she recommended a book to me. She said to get it and do the checklists in it and it will help us to figure out exactly what hormones are out of whack. She said that I didn't have to follow the diet plan exactly but that there was a lot of really good information in it. She wants me to focus more on the getting healthy and less on the fertility for a little bit of time (so yes, I ended up having chips for supper tonight). The book is called The Supercharged Hormone Diet by Dr. Natasha Turner. So far it's kind of interesting. I started looking at a couple of the tests and it is looking like I'm very high on cortisol which could account for a lot. That is one hormone that has never been tested in me, so who knows... maybe we're onto something.
She doesn't want me to go on any herbs until we have a better handle on it - she said that my system is too weak for herbs right now, so after it is stronger, then she'll recommend some.
I am booked in to get a treatment once a week for the next month. It means weekly trips to the city, but if it makes a difference, it will be worth it.
One of the things that the book recommends is to detox for a week then slowly reintroduce foods to determine if there are any intolerances that are causing trouble. I might try a detox, but I already told my husband that he needs to leave the town for that week because if I give up carbs, meat, sugar, and caffeine all in one week... well, I won't be held responsible for my behaviour.
So, anyway, the treatment went pretty well and I'm trying to be positive about all of it. It's a different approach, so why not give it a shot!
I had acupuncture a few years ago when I was struggling with pain for a herniated disc. Nothing I did, and nothing I took seemed to fix the pain, so I thought "why not". Top it off that my health plan covered it, so I gave it a shot and holy moly, the pain went right away... and stayed away for about 3 weeks! amazing!
Soooo, I figured, why not. My friend over at Sprout suggested that perhaps acupuncture to spur on ovulation might be in order. I figured, why not. So I went in yesterday.
My appointment started with a full history - REALLY full history, more than any medical doctor has ever taken. Given that I was there for fertility issues, the fact that she was asking me about ear infections, etc was really weird. Then when we were finished she told me that it turns out that the ears are connected to the same system that the reproductive system is ... the kidney meridian. That doesn't mean there is anything wrong with my kidneys, just that that system is weakened. She said that all things point to my body, and particularly the kidney meridian, being weakened from the extensive medical issues that I've had in the past couple of years and has been exacerbated by the stress.
She wants to treat me to improve the energy of this zone and improve it. She said that she thinks from what I've told her that I am ovulating and quite possibly getting pregnant, but my body is unable to support a pregnancy. Given that my luteal phase is typically REALLY short she may be right. She actually said that she thinks that it might be better to wait a month or two before getting pregnant in order to strengthen my system so that it is ready for pregnancy. I'm tossing the idea around. Not the idea of not trying, just the idea of not using drugs and just letting it happen if it happens over the summer. I don't have an appointment with the obgyn until August 24, so maybe if I just wait until then to go on the drugs... I don't know... it's an idea I"m throwing around.
Anyway, she recommended a book to me. She said to get it and do the checklists in it and it will help us to figure out exactly what hormones are out of whack. She said that I didn't have to follow the diet plan exactly but that there was a lot of really good information in it. She wants me to focus more on the getting healthy and less on the fertility for a little bit of time (so yes, I ended up having chips for supper tonight). The book is called The Supercharged Hormone Diet by Dr. Natasha Turner. So far it's kind of interesting. I started looking at a couple of the tests and it is looking like I'm very high on cortisol which could account for a lot. That is one hormone that has never been tested in me, so who knows... maybe we're onto something.
She doesn't want me to go on any herbs until we have a better handle on it - she said that my system is too weak for herbs right now, so after it is stronger, then she'll recommend some.
I am booked in to get a treatment once a week for the next month. It means weekly trips to the city, but if it makes a difference, it will be worth it.
One of the things that the book recommends is to detox for a week then slowly reintroduce foods to determine if there are any intolerances that are causing trouble. I might try a detox, but I already told my husband that he needs to leave the town for that week because if I give up carbs, meat, sugar, and caffeine all in one week... well, I won't be held responsible for my behaviour.
So, anyway, the treatment went pretty well and I'm trying to be positive about all of it. It's a different approach, so why not give it a shot!
Thursday, 2 June 2011
Bring on the needles
I'm off to the acupuncturist this afternoon. I've decided that if I have to wait months to see my obgyn (keep reading for more info on that insanity), I would try some natural healing options to try to help with TTC.
Right now, I'm pretty sure that I'm not ovulating. My BBTs are all over the place, and I'm just frustrated because I'm pretty sure that a round of Clomid (or something like it) would solve all the problems. Everything else seems normal. I get other symptoms that I'm going to ovulate - but my BBTs show that I'm not. On top of it, it seems like I might have a shortened luteal phase, but that really doesn't matter if I'm not ovulating!
So I have an appointment to see if acupuncture and herbs can help with that little problem.
I heard from a friend who uses the same obgyn that she called for an appointment and was offered days in June or July. When I called a month ago, I was told August 24th was the first option. That just pisses me off. I feel like I"m racing against time, because the hyperplasia could return, and if I end up having a return of that before I get pregnant all because I had to wait, I'm going to be pissed! So I tried to call yesterday to find out why I wasn't offered an earlier option. I got a message saying that they were closed from April 22 to May 2. Um, last I checked it's June. But the only other option was to indicate it was an emergency and go to an answering service (which I wasn't going to do). So, today, after my acupuncture, I am going to drive to the office and find out in person what is going on!
On the positive front however... yesterday, my hubby was offered full time employment for next year, still at the same school as this year. So that's awesome! One stressor down. The admin even came into my classroom to tell me that he had offered him the position. I thanked him and said "oh, good, that's a stress off". He said "Yeah, that's why I told you - you look pretty stressed out right now". Nice eh? I keep telling the students that I'm a woman on the edge. *sigh*
I'm told that school is finished in a month... I really need a break!
Right now, I'm pretty sure that I'm not ovulating. My BBTs are all over the place, and I'm just frustrated because I'm pretty sure that a round of Clomid (or something like it) would solve all the problems. Everything else seems normal. I get other symptoms that I'm going to ovulate - but my BBTs show that I'm not. On top of it, it seems like I might have a shortened luteal phase, but that really doesn't matter if I'm not ovulating!
So I have an appointment to see if acupuncture and herbs can help with that little problem.
I heard from a friend who uses the same obgyn that she called for an appointment and was offered days in June or July. When I called a month ago, I was told August 24th was the first option. That just pisses me off. I feel like I"m racing against time, because the hyperplasia could return, and if I end up having a return of that before I get pregnant all because I had to wait, I'm going to be pissed! So I tried to call yesterday to find out why I wasn't offered an earlier option. I got a message saying that they were closed from April 22 to May 2. Um, last I checked it's June. But the only other option was to indicate it was an emergency and go to an answering service (which I wasn't going to do). So, today, after my acupuncture, I am going to drive to the office and find out in person what is going on!
On the positive front however... yesterday, my hubby was offered full time employment for next year, still at the same school as this year. So that's awesome! One stressor down. The admin even came into my classroom to tell me that he had offered him the position. I thanked him and said "oh, good, that's a stress off". He said "Yeah, that's why I told you - you look pretty stressed out right now". Nice eh? I keep telling the students that I'm a woman on the edge. *sigh*
I'm told that school is finished in a month... I really need a break!
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