Too much stress

I am so very stressed.

First of all, this month resulted in no pregnancy either. I had some hope, my numbers looked good - for few days. I had some symptoms that I hadn't had before... all of this made me hope. But nope, nothing. On what should have been CD 24, boom, there was my AF. At first I thought that might just be implantation bleeding, or simple spotting... but nope - the following two days have revealed that it is definitely AF. *sigh*

However, that's not my major stressor right now.

Currently work is a bit of an insane situation. I am a teacher and my union is trying to negotiation a new contract for the teachers in my province. For the first time ever, teachers walked off the job for three days this past month. So that is causing a bit of stress given that we don't get paid when we're out on strike. After the first day of striking, we were faced with a slap in the face offer. This resulted in teachers waiting two more weeks and then being told to walk out of the classroom for two more days. So, now we're three days behind on classroom instruction and still have no contract. So then our union tells us to not do anything other than teach and plan for teaching starting on Monday. So we do. We cancel extracurricular activities, we tell the kids they can't go, we make alternate arrangements for supervision, for awards banquets, etc, and we got settled into the idea of not putting in all the volunteering. And then.. wait for it... Tuesday we get an email saying that on Wednesday we go back to all the normal services. *sigh*

I read the email this morning and I just cried. Seriously, I broke down and sobbed. I'm so tired of the back and forth. I'm so tired of trying to explain this all to the kids. I'm so tired of the emotional roller coaster. I have now lost two days of planning time for a big camping trip that my class is taking next week. Until midnight tonight I'm not supposed to do anything to plan for it. This means that I've lost valuable planning time, and I had replanned my instructional schedule to take into account that I had two more days to teach by not going on the camping trip. Now I have to redo it again. It's just so frustrating. I'm so tired of it all. I have dreams, or should I say nightmares, about this stupid job action.

On top of it, we're still waiting to hear if my husband has a job for next year. Because we're both teachers, this strike action has lost us about 1500 dollars this month in pay. That's a lot of money when you live paycheque to paycheque. My husband is currently on a temporary teaching position and his admin has told him that he wants him back next year, but hasn't yet confirmed that it will for sure happen (he claims that he is waiting for the HR dept to confirm that he is allowed to hire my husband without posting the position). So we're at a stand still. We live in a rather rural area so there aren't that many jobs out there for us... but my job is permanent and we're not planning on moving any time soon, so we're going to have to just wait it out. More stress.

I'm just so stressed out. I need a vacation.